We’ve seen God work in our lives, yet we don’t really think He will work in this particular situation or that particular circumstance. We’ve read God’s promises countless times, but we don’t know if they apply to us. We don’t always try to doubt Him or obsess about our issues. However, the presence of worry simply points to the truths buried in our hearts: we are self-centered and cynical human beings.
Louis saw God as the source of his suffering in the prison camps and wanted nothing to do with Him. When the PTSD became too difficult to handle, he drank alcohol. But it led him to his downfall. He was only able to see his circumstances clearly when he turned to Christ and trusted Him for salvation. He realized that God did not cause his pain but allowed it so that Louis could come to know Him.
I didn’t just want a charming guy to sweep me off my feet. I wanted a man who could bring me closer to Christ. And that kind of spiritual maturity reveals a heart that is satisfied in God. If I could tell that young man (or any of the young men I’ve been attracted to over the years) what I desire in a future husband, I would say this:
Sometimes, we wander to sinful addictions and habits that ensnare us. Other times, we wander to Satan's lies because they seem more believable than God's Truth. And other times, we wander to self-pity and self-defeat because our situation seems to difficult to handle. But take heart, Wanderer. You don't walk alone.