Where God's Word Meets Our Mess
Ed was never satisfied with my efforts though. He demanded more from me. He told me I still wasn’t skinny. He continued to control me because I let him. I should’ve broken up with him sooner than I did. But love is blind, right?
The rest of the story—and the progress you’d made up until that point—is now ancient history. It didn’t take long for you to spiral. Something in you snapped the second you saw the bright red number flash on the scale. Suddenly, it feels like everything has returned to the way it was before.
As a former anorexic, I know how prevalent the topic of health is in our culture. For about two years, I devoted myself to "being healthy" because I thought my body was gross, not good. But rather than becoming satisfied with my body as I lost weight, I developed an eating disorder and have spent the past several years recovering from it. To help you avoid falling into the trap that I fell into, I want to point out two lies you may be believing about health.
Real Recovery: What Eating Disorder Recovery Actually Looks Like is officially two years old! But this isn’t just a celebratory post; it’s also an advisory post. Really, this post is my encouragement to you to start your eating disorder recovery journey. But I want you to know a couple specific things—things I discuss in Real Recovery—as you start this important journey.
Hi friends! Today's post has a link to a recent episode of The Joyful Health Show, where I chatted with host Kasey Shuler about how anorexia affected my life, what my recovery journey looked like, and how I ended up writing Real Recovery. I really appreciate Kasey having me on the show, and I hope you have the opportunity to listen to it soon (which you can do by clicking here)!
Remember the interview I did last year with Brittany Braswell? She's a Registered Dietician, and she started a podcast called Faith-Filled Food Freedom, where she addresses nutrition and body image from a biblical perspective. Recently, I was a guest on her podcast and talked about eating disorder recovery (especially spiritual recovery). I'm thankful to Brittany for giving me the opportunity to share. You can listen to the episode by clicking here!
Earlier this month, I was a guest on Cara Blondo's podcast, The One Thing Desired. Cara actually struggled with an eating disorder like I did, and her journey is so similar to mine. I know you'll enjoy our conversation about the ups and downs of eating disorder recovery and how God has worked through our recovery stories. I'm grateful to Cara for having me on her podcast and hope you check it out. You can find our recent conversation by clicking here!
Because I don't like my body. Honestly, I haven't for a very long time. Nothing is wrong with it—it works perfectly fine and is completely healthy. Yet it's still so hard to accept the body I have. Maybe body acceptance is a challenge for all of us as women. Because I don't like my body. Honestly, I haven't for a very long time. Nothing is wrong with it—it works perfectly fine and is completely healthy. Yet it's still so hard to accept the body I have. But isn't that just part of womanhood?
For today's post (which falls during Eating Disorders Awareness Week), I'm sharing an episode of BRAVE, a podcast I recently appeared on to talk about my journey through anorexia, my journey through recovery, and how my relationship with God was impacted. This podcast is part of FCA BRAVE (a specific ministry of Fellowship of Christian Athletes). You can find the episode here! Special thanks to Amber Johns for having me as a guest.
