Where God's Word Meets Our Mess
Ed was never satisfied with my efforts though. He demanded more from me. He told me I still wasn’t skinny. He continued to control me because I let him. I should’ve broken up with him sooner than I did. But love is blind, right?
But instead of reaping the rewards, you’re just waiting. You’re still falling through the sky…and you’re not sure if there will be someone to catch you when you reach the ground.
I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately. I’m wondering why I devote so much of my time and energy to you. I mean, you’re not the best thing that’s ever happened to me. In fact, you’ve left me feeling miserable, guilty, and anxious quite often.
I'm not saying that I'm going to let go of my relationship with Maddy. But grasping this relationship so tightly is making me exhausted. But what—or who—should I grasp instead?
I usually don’t introduce my posts with Bible verses. However, I read this passage from John 5 recently, and it really got my attention. Even though I think Jesus was directing these words at nonbelievers, verse 45 in particular hit my heart with a heavy thud and convicted me of several serious sins in my life.
Sometimes, I just want to walk up to him and ask him the question. I mean, what would he say? I’d love to know how he’d answer if I asked him, "So why don't you like me?"
To be honest, I’ve struggled with idolatry for years. I want to believe that I simply have chronic idolatry, but I know that’s just a lie from Satan. Whether I want to admit it or not, idolatry doesn’t just “happen” to me; it's a choice. I choose to worship idols. I choose not to let them go. I choose to serve them when I should serve Christ.
I worshiped eight idols today. No, I’m not exaggerating. I worshiped eight different idols in less than 24 hours—and that doesn't even include all of them.
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