Woes of the Weak Worry Warrior

Wow. It’s almost 2017! A new year is here, and exciting new things are ahead.

Well, maybe for you.

But all I can see is the unchartered territory that lies ahead, which makes me nervous.

In fact, I am terrified.

I am terrified of the big, bold, scary future in front of me. I have no idea what’s coming my way.

What if I spend four years in college and then can’t get a job? What if I have to go back to school and spend four more years getting a different degree? What if I have to sit at a desk for the rest of my life? (Certainly, it would be the worst thing ever.)

What if I don’t get married until I’m 40? Or what if I rush into a marriage and want to get a divorce later on?

What if I fall away from the Christian faith?

These are some of the fears that haunt me. It is very easy for worry to consume me because, unfortunately, I am not a strong worry warrior.

One of my biggest worries is that I won’t be able to be near my family after college. If I meet a guy in college and get married, I might never get to see my family. I don’t want to be the girl who only gets to see her parents on Christmas and Easter.

It feels like everything is going to change.

How awful. How depressing. How scary.

Some seniors become ecstatic at this realization, but I feel quite the opposite.

Now, of course, a good Christian girl would trust that God has everything figured out and that she doesn’t have to worry or fear or because God has an incredible plan for her life.

But all this Christian girl can see is the unknown—the big, black hole, holding who-knows-what inside.

But I don’t have to be afraid.

The troubles of my heart are enlarged; bring me out of my distresses (Psalm 25:17).

I sought the Lord, and He answered me, and delivered me from all my fears (Psalm 34:4).

She, greatly distressed, prayed to the Lord and wept bitterly (1 Samuel 1:10).

Honestly, I wish I could be seven years old forever. I just want to play with my sisters and sit on my mom’s lap and play catch with my dad forever. No surprises. No changes. Just me and my family and my secure little home.

But then I’d never fulfill God’s dreams for me.

He has a plan for me, as I already mentioned. He has something He wants me to do, but I can’t do it if I am a kid forever.

My current plan is to live close to home when college is over. Maybe you’d rather travel to a distant country and plant your roots there, which is okay, too. But wherever you are, remember that the safest place for you is in God’s hands.

And by the way, it’s okay to weep bitterly, as Hannah did in 1 Samuel. (I definitely have my share of bitter weeping.) But don’t forget to pray when your meltdown is over. Without prayer, we can’t be “delivered from all [our] fears” (Psalm 34:4).

Anyway, happy new year, friends! I hope you enjoy your holiday and remember that God has great things for us in 2017.

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  1. Excellent post! Thank you for your willingness to be open about your struggles. I can relate 🙂 Keep up the good work!

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