If I Let You Go

Recently, a sister in Christ lovingly pointed out my unhealthy attachment to one of my friends, Maddy*. In response, my heart broke a little—not because she hurt my feelings when she told me but because I knew that she was right. My fear of losing control kicked in, and my heart started to summersault.

She noticed that I’m too close to Maddy? What does that mean for me? Do I have to spend less time with Maddy and communicate less often with her? What if I lose her?

I’m afraid that if I loosen my grip on Maddy, she’ll become less close with me and closer to her other friends. Ultimately, I’m scared of having a shallow—even nonexistent—relationship with her.

I’m not saying that I’m going to let go of my relationship with Maddy. But grasping this relationship so tightly is making me exhausted. But what—or who—should I grasp instead?

If I let you go,
Who will be my new home?

If I loosen my grip,
Who will anchor my ship?

If I let you move on,
Who will keep my heart calm?

If I empty my hands,
Who will fill them again?

If I watch you leave,
Who will stay beside me?

If I share your love,
Who will replace the sum?

If I give you up,
Who will say I’m enough?

The choice to let go
Is the choice to say no.

The choice to say no
Is the choice to follow.

The choice to follow
Is the choice to have hope—

With hands that are free
And a heart that is light,

With a smile that’s real
And clear eyes that have sight,

With arms that are open
And legs that run wild,

With the One holding me
Who calls me His child.

“Ho! Everyone who thirsts, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat. Yes, come, buy wine and milk without money and without price. Why do you spend money for what is not bread, and your wages for what does not satisfy? Listen carefully to Me, and eat what is good, and let your soul delight itself in abundance. Incline your ear, and come to Me. Hear, and your soul shall live; and I will make an everlasting covenant with you—the sure mercies of David. Indeed I have given him as a witness to the people, a leader and commander for the people. Surely you shall call a nation you do not know, and nations who do not know you shall run to you, because of the Lord your God, and the Holy One of Israel; for He has glorified you.” Seek the Lord while He may be found, call upon Him while He is near. Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts; let him return to the Lord, and He will have mercy on him; and to our God, for He will abundantly pardon. (Isaiah 55:1-7 NKJV)

*Name has been changed.

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