Where God's Word Meets Our Mess
It's likely that the past several weeks have been stressful for you. Maybe you feel like a heavy burden is weighing down your heart and your mind. Maybe you feel like a dark cloud is looming over your head or your home. Maybe you feel like a huge question mark is staring you in the face because the future is so unknown. Thank you, COVID-19.
I recently got an email that my college’s on-campus classes will be switched to online classes for the remainder of the semester. Taking online classes means goodbye dorm room. Goodbye cafeteria. Goodbye professors. Goodbye tutoring job. And goodbye friends.
After recognizing my overdependence on this friend, I then realized something scary. I had also developed an overdependence on my crush, too. He wasn’t even my boyfriend. In fact, he had only spoken to me one time.
I realize that most people hate the Christmas rush, but I think that it can be a great thing. You know—the rush to buy presents for family members and friends, the rush to watch every Christmas movie possible, the rush to decorate with cute Christmas décor, and the rush to make cards and cookies. The rush to get it all over with. I love the Christmas rush because it helps me escape…but only for so long.
My roommate and I were walking into a meeting and glanced around for two empty seats. My roommate spotted two open seats by Reagan, so we sat down there. Reagan didn't say anything when I sat down (neither did I), but partway through the meeting, she got up from her chair and moved to sit in another seat. With other girls. And a really cute guy. To say that was offended would be an understatement. To say that I was furious would be more accurate.
I felt weary and distant from God, and I felt apathetic about my circumstances. I know that feeling a certain way isn’t necessarily a choice...but following our feelings is a choice. And it has consequences.
I couldn't understand why Reagan ignored my offer to join us. I was curious if there was a specific reason she rejected my invitation, but I was upset that she didn't join our table.
I quickly realized a trend in my office. Employees often asked to speak with the other people in my office, but they never asked to speak with me. And sometimes I just wanted someone to want me.
Let’s just say that the dog days of summer have begun…and it’s only June 11th. I’m definitely happy to be done with school. I’m excited for the sunshine, spending time with family and friends, and enjoying some free time. I’m excited to visit the beach, watch Hallmark movies, and cook homemade meals. But even with all the activities ahead, I know I’ll still experience feelings of boredom.
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